Makes 4. Or six, depending on how high you fill the muffin cups. Bake 30 min at 375.

The butter gets melted and brushed on the cups before filling, not stirred in.

I find nuts and dried tomatoes good substitute for bacon.

Went down a little after vacation, now back up almost the same amount. Like you - 2-3 lb range.

I'm trying to focus on eating the things I'm producing. Tonight I made beet greens and onions cooked in a curried cream (goat) sauce. Served over store bought rice.

That sounds nice SubC. How do you cook your popovers? Does that recipe make 4? I would like to try it.

I wish I liked spinach enough to eat a big salad. Bah. I used to like it when I could have bacon in the salad!

The scale jumped back up today which makes me frustrated. It just goes up and down the same 3 pounds. I am not buying junk and am also eating fruit - mainly apricots and cherries right now.

I don't know about sweet cherries. Pie cherries turn into tiny chewy chips.

We are having a heat wave! One good thing is that the heat is hard on my appetite.

I had 4 popovers for breakfast = 1/2c flour, 1/2 c milk, 1 egg, touch of butter, hint of salt. With black coffee.

Lunch is a giant salad of mostly spinach because I wanted to empty the salad spinner. I added lettuce, a couple of ounces of homemade goat cheese, a handful of walnut pieces, a large carrot and a splash of blackberry port that has gone to vinegar.

My friend invited me over to pick blueberries yesterday evening. I have three cookie trays of blueberries in my chest freezer and will refill them when they are good and frozen and still have plenty of berries for fresh eating. I also picked a pint and a half of raspberries from my yard this morning (it took half an hour moving slowly and an hour of reading in the cool basement to recover from) the raspberries are on their way out, but there is probably another pint out there that it is just too hot to pick.

Anyway, lots of fruit to make good choices for snacking!, and I am using food I did not have to buy at the store, plus things that are in my fridge/cupboard from the store.

Good ideas, SubC! I think there are 2 tortillas in the fridge. I will try a salad wrap.

I do have a dehydrator that someone gave me last year, so I think I will dry some of the apricots. I wonder if cherries would work or if they would just stain the dehydrator trays?

With the eggs and half a loaf of bread I had sitting around, I made an apricot bread pudding and it is yummy.

I am going to saute some spinach and beet greens in sesame oil with garlic and soy sauce and a few green onions I have left and have it for dinner tonight.

I also found broccoli and zucchini and asparagus in the fridge so I better get to eating my veggies!

Well, today for lunch I was looking for a non-salad way to eat a lot of lettuce - we were out of tortillas, but had flour, so I made some tortillas, melted a little goat cheese on one, added a splash of hot sauce, and rolled it around the biggest bunch of lettuce it would hold - yum.

Dates - roll in unsweetened cocoa and freeze for a sweet treat.

I'd dry the apricots, but you don't have a dehydrator. Freeze fruit for smoothies?

My friend called me to come pick blueberries this evening. It will still be really hot, but worth it!

SubC, oh that is great! And now that you are home and can make even better choices, I bet some weight will drop off.

I am trying to figure out how to use up a huge amount of produce that has been gifted to me from a couple of friends. I am SUPER grateful for it and don't want it to go to waste! I welcome any ideas beyond just salad. I have lots of

red and green lettuce/spring mix salad - bags full
fresh spinach - bags full
cherries and apricots, more than we can just eat (I already have several jars of jam left from last year!)
dates - an entire box of soft sweet dates!

I am not sure what else, as one friend dropped things off yesterday while I was gone, and DIL put it in the fridge. I will look today.

I am down one more pound and trying to keep the walking habit.

Woke up in my own bed this morning and got on the scale for the first time in over a week.

I have gained - nothing. I weigh exactly the same as I did the morning I left.

How? I don't know. Morning walks on the beach? More days playing with grandsons? Swimming in the ocean?

The garden is coming in. tons of lettuce, beet greens, and small beets ready to harvest. The first tiny cucumbers are the size of foam ear plugs. The raspberries aren't done.

Today I will make good choices.

I think eating special things someone made for you out of love is good. I mean, how many more times will you get to eat something your mom or dad made for you? It is really special. So enjoy.

I am down one more pound. I think the medication is helping a lot, already. I am trying to be more thoughtful about what I eat, and a friend gave me some fresh vegetables and fruit and another friend gave me a bag of cherries! So delicious. Who needs junk? (I need a chip substitute... kale does not cut it).

My father is cooking and there is no scale. My mom has made my three favorite childhood desserts.

As I sat stuffed after dinner last night and my father offered to cook more and my mom asked if I was ready for dessert, I remembered why I was a fat kid. Food = love.

Moving to my in-laws today, fewer food options, but a big party tonight. i'll try to eat lightly and keep moving as much as I can until we come back here on Monday.

Cheese is one of my favorite foods! I wish I could try your cheese, or come and learn to make it with you! Which reminds me, I was given like 4 packets of different kinds of sliced cheese and if I don't use it, it is going to spoil. I decided to make some mac and cheese with it, probably tomorrow since for today I already thawed that spaghetti sauce to use, and bought a nice fresh load of seeded bread to enjoy a slice with my pasta later.

I should probably have that with a bunch of vegetables, huh??

I am finally down one pound. It took long enough.

I am continuing to make frozen fruit into ice cream. The other night I used about a cup of frozen, dark sweet cherries from like 8 months ago, plus half a sliced frozen banana, a spoon of dark cocoa and a bit of cashew milk creamer (unsweetened) and put it in the food processor until creamy like ice cream. It was sooo good!

Good morning!

The peach yogurt was a good choice for a treat! I'm glad you got to make your salad.

Still holding still. I'm very sore from working in the garden yesterday. More to do today.

I'm planning for my treat to be chocolate milk again because there is just enough chocolate syrup left in the jar and I am not keeping up with the milk. I will have to have a cheese making day when we get back from our trip.

I am staying the same too so far, SubC. Eating better for sure.

I finally this morning sorted out the vegetable drawer in the fridge, which was terribly disappointing, because I totally forgot I had bought broccoli and cucumbers awhile back. Both had to be tossed. So sad, I love both! But I was able to pick through the celery, green onions, and cilantro and have a good amount left to use. And, the jicama was still good, so I made the yummy salad and ate it for lunch and a snack. I had the last of the pizza for dinner and am going to make some peach frozen yogurt for my dessert (frozen peaches from last summer, vanilla yogurt, blended until smooth).

Oops! I didn't post yesterday not post yesterday. Sorry, I was really busy.

Not gaining, not losing, taking a break from yoga, but I had a really good salad with greens from my garden for lunch.

My "treats" today have been licking the ice cream beater and spoons, and salted almonds with chocolate milk. It's 6:30, so I'm going to try to get through the next three or four hours with light and healthy things, no more treats.

The less sugar, less fat ice cream still tastes yummy.

I am the same way, SubC, with weighing. When I am paying attention, I weigh daily. When I go off the rails, I suddenly ignore the scale for weeks. It's a real head-in-the-sand move. Over time I have seen that I do better if I weigh daily so I can notice any trends and not just ignore gains.

I am going to sort through the fridge this evening, especially the fruit and veg drawers, to see what is in there. I know I had a jicama I bought to make a salad recipe I saved, but who knows if it is still good? I have never used one before. But they look like they would last a long time.

I weigh every morning. I have to, it's the only way I can see trends our trip will be hard, because I am capable of gain8ng ten pounds in ten days if I don't weigh in and don't realize how much I'm eating (which is also very easy with social eating, readily available snacks, and many dessert options.

I did not eat my vegetables, but it was ok because it was because Dh only ate half of the vegetable and rice dinner we had last night, and I wanted the container out of the fridge.

My treat today was chocolate milk and walnuts. I may have a snack before bed, but not ice cream.

I skipped yoga yesterday and will probably skip it today, but I might get inspired this evening, we'll see.

You are doing good SubC! How often do you weigh yourself?

I had 2 eggs made into a cheese omelet this morning, no bread/toast. I was going to have strawberries with it, but they had gone moldy. Sad! I had an apple instead.

For lunch I had one slice of cheese pizza and stopped for a treat while I was out, but it was a healthier (sort of) treat. There was a food truck making beer battered asparagus. oh my goodness was it delicious! But I am mainly going to avoid fried foods from now on.

I am focusing on drinking more water as well, and took a vitamin. It is exceedingly hot, over 100, and I did not walk this morning. Not sure if it will be cool enough to maybe walk at 8pm.

Good morning Lila!

Good job!

I read the other thread and it sounds like you have lots of good choices for your menu today.

I also had a square of dark chocolate yesterday - lol! I have a bar of it up in the office loft of my pottery studio. I moved it out there so if I want it I have to walk out there and climb stairs - setting up my environment for success.

Last night I sat up online for half an hour longer than I should have, thinking about eating some chocolate ice cream and resisting. Finally I pointed out to myself that instead of eating ice cream, I needed to go to bed.

I have some target vegetables to eat today, and the afternoon thrifting with Dd will keep me from snacking. (Now I just have to use good judgement during the thrifting)

okay SubC, I started today! Not a huge change just today but a small one.

I had a coupon for a free coffee so I got a blended matcha and that was my breakfast. I wanted to go get an egg biscuit too, but I restrained myself.

I am up 6 pounds right now from my recent low.

Then for lunch I had some leftover pizza and water.

Dinner was blackeyed peas, cabbage, and a small piece of cornbread.

I had a square of dark chocolate and a sugar free jello as well.

I threw out some junk. There is not much left.

Let's get this going!

(I did not walk today - I have no energy)

Where are you Lila?

Cone start now. :)

I made a moderate eating plan for the day and have stuck to it so far.

I'm up 5 lbs from my best weight since January and hoping to make it through our trip no heavier than I am now, whic( I th8nk will require a pre trip dip.

One day at a time.

Well, I didn't quite make that goal.

I stayed long at the studio working and got hungry and went back to the brunch tray and there were only bagels, so I had two bagels total. One raisin, one plain, no toppings. Dh made pasta for dinner but I did eat mine with tomato sauce and spinach.

I did snack on fruit and nuts (protein).

Tiny dip this morning. (I have an analog spring scale, so all I know is the arrow is between the previous pound and the next pound down - which is probably within the margin of error.)

I am hungry this morning, which is a good sign. I haven't been hungry in the morning for a while.

Boys today, so I will be active, but also it will be hard to resist the treats I give them. - thinking about making pancakes..

Hi Lila,

I was locked out of the forum yesterday.

Did you toss the crap food? I can't keep crap food out of the house because of Dh, but I am working on resetting my brain to think of it as "his" food.

I stopped the increase for three days running. (I do not have good bodily awareness, so I have to weigh myself every day, otherwise I notice I've gained weight when my pants will not zip or lost it when the need a belt to stay up.)

I bought a bunch of fruit and I'm focusing on "things I will eat" instead of "things I won't". I noticed yesterday that getting deeply immersed in pottery turns off my snacking switch (dopamine hits)

I have a brunch today, so avoiding processed food and carbs will be a challenge, but I will eat one carefully chosen baked good. Then I will not eat cookies or cereal when I am home. I have lettuce and spinach in the garden. I will eat some of each. I will eat fruit and protein.

hi SubC, I am up at least 6 pounds from stress eating. I have been very indulgent with the sugar and carbs, to the point my joints hurt and I feel icky. I am getting rid of whatever is left so I can detox from the sugar.

I think a teaspoon of local honey in my tea once or twice a day is all the sugar I will allow. Unless there is a special occasion, where someone bakes something special, which should be pretty rare. Even then, a sliver should be enough.

I also need to slide back the refined carbs.

I have a muffin top oozing over the top of my jeans now (I think all 6 pounds went right to there) so that any top I have clings to the roll. I hate it, but I know it should go away pretty quickly with getting off the sugar and carbs.

I am considering a fast - I find it pretty tolerable to do 16:8 intermittent fasting. And just tossing anything that is crap food in my kitchen and not buying any more junk.

How about you, SubC?

Haven't done the fridge/pantry clean out.
Been dropping some of the good habits and picking up bad ones. - "feeding" my stress, "rewarding" or "supporting" myself with food rather than positive experiences and real self care.
My weight has crept up again.

I ran across a video on addiction this week in which the poster said you tell yourself "tonight's the last night. Nah man, last night was."

I know I need to just start doing the good things again and not say "this weekend, when school is over" or "after I finish off (x)" that is in the house.

I'm tired. I feel like sugar makes me less tired, but it doesn't, it masks the tired with a surge of energy that just leaves me more tired. Sleep makes me less tired.

And, my house is filling up with packaging that needs to be taken to the recycling. Eating processed food makes it harder to deal with the hoarding by making me feel worse physically and giving me more to do.

Today. Just for today. I will not eat any food that results in empty packaging (except paper/cardboard - basic ingredients come in paper and cardboard and they are easy to recycle.)

Haven't posted here for a bit.

The bad choices are starting to creep back in at the grocery store. Too many commercial breads and "but it was on special" treats (Easter candy hasn't helped) not enough vegetables.

I am about 3/4 of the way to my goal, but I have been stuck yo-yoing the same few pounds for a couple of weeks. It might take school getting out for me to get moving again.

A fridge or cupboard clean-out would not be a bad idea.

Nice job on the soup!

I made popovers yesterday. Dh made a healthy fridge cleanout stir fry for dinner.

I also worked in my studio all afternoon and wedged over 25 pounds of remixed clay. I was reminded that wedging is a good upper body workout.

Self care instead of self soothing! (Self care makes life better for future you, self soothing makes you feel better in the moment, but leaves you worse off.)

Slow progress continues.

Good self awareness, SubC. A break in the routine (indulgence) is okay here and there. Life.

Today continuing the use what I have theme, I made squash soup. I used frozen butternut squash from a friend's garden, seasonings, plant milk, a bit of brown sugar, browned butter and veggie broth. I blended it. Then I fried some whole sage leaves from the freezer (from a friend's garden) for garnish. Topped with a little grate of Parmesan. Enjoyed with some homemade wheat bread from a homemade loaf someone gave me yesterday.

Good job Lila! I guess like the hoard, the first step is to stop things coming in.

Dh took me out last night for wine and a fried appetizer I really like. We got too big a plate (the large instead of the small) and I overate. My body complained about it this morning and I had a two pound bump, but I did enjoy them. Next time - the small.

I fed my bread craving by making cornbread today. I am also trying to work through my pantry and fridge (mostly pantry. Fridge is pretty light, except, ironically, eggs.) I need to get back to baking more (breads, not cakes!)

hi SubC. Wow, you are doing amazing!! I am so happy for you! I sort of stopping thinking about it with all the other stuff, but I managed not to regain. And lost a couple more. Today I am -19 pounds from my recent high weight. I also feel better, and have more energy.

I am telling myself, "Eat what you have! Stop letting good food spoil while you keep buying pies and cheese and crackers!" So I am doing that. I have veggies and fruit I am eating before they spoil before I buy more. I mean, I will buy kiwis or berries and let the oranges and apples sit for months. Silly. So I am eating what I have. This also applies to other foods. I really want bread, but instead of buying it, I tell myself, "Look, if you want bread, make it from what you have. Or settle for crackers." Mostly I am settling for crackers, so they are not going to go stale.

I am also walking a lot more. Almist every day I go for a walk, unless I am doing a lot around the house and am already tired/sore.

Keep going, we've got this!

Lila, how are you doing? I know this has been a rough patch for you. I just hope you are caring for yourself in as healthy a way as possible.

After bouncing up and down, I am more than halfway to my goal! I am planning to do a big clothing declutter when school ends in May

I have not started riding the bike, but the farm work has picked up, I am doing yoga fairly consistently, and I am watching less YouTube. My diet also continues to improve. This week I indulged in an Irish soda bread at the grocery store. It was deeply disappointing - it tasted like chemicals to me. - the cleaner I eat, the less appealing the processed stuff becomes. Win!

I am noticing that I have more energy, but that might just be spring.

This week I discovered that if I wear my new "I give up, I'm fat, I have to have jeans that fit to go to work" jeans three times before washing them, they stretch out enough that on day 3 I need a belt. I am now only wearing them to work or when I have to look a little bit nice and I am wearing the largest size of old jeans at home or on casual errands (groceries, library stop.)

I am also still working on decluttering bad habits at the grocery store. I've been doing some research on calories and exercise, which is making me get a little more realistic about what I can accomplish. However, in light of what I am learning, I think the next bad habit I need to declutter is watching YouTube videos on the couch. If I ride even slowly on the stationary bike for an hour (which on average is less than I watch YouTube) every day, I will burn enough extra calories to lose almost a pound a month. Which doesn't sound like much, but that's ten pounds less this time next year. Poco a poco. It should also help my aerobic fitness at least a little.

I am at 1/4 of my goal.

Mostly due to a rapid drop while I was most sick, but it is all mostly Covid related. I still have no appetite and chocolate doesn't taste right. I'm too tired to want to drink alchohol. I have been continuing to focus on eating fruits and vegetables and just not buying processed foods except for Dh (and store bread, but just regular bread, not bakery goodies) I did buy a box of sugared, high fiber cereal as comfort food.

My goats are dried off, so my dairy consumption is way down.

Thought I would check in here.

I have gone up and down a few pounds over the last month, but right now I am at -17 from my high weight last year. Hey, that is pretty good progress! And, in one more pound I will be at my first goal. That one pound has been tough to tackle for some reason.

SubC, stopping the gain is the first step in reversing it. Good job!

I am at -14 pounds now. Feeling good and thanking God for helping me stop my old habit of putting food first. My first milestone will be at -18, which puts me at an almost 2-year low. And way more clothes fitting.

Good morning. Back on this.

After doing yoga every day in September, I just...stopped.

But I have gotten back to it - so far every day this year.

I am also working on my food choices - the easiest place to do that being the grocery store. The less packaged food I buy, the healthier my choices are, and the less packaging I have to process and recycle or take to a trash receptacle. I'd like to think it helps with the grocery bill, but it's winter, so I'm pretty sure focusing on fresh fruits and veggies instead of grocery clearance and discount carbs is going to be more expensive. But maybe not if I eat less.

I do have dried veggies to snack on in the pantry - I need to remember that and eat them instead of hoarding them. Like hiking, where they remind you that your water is more useful and easier to carry inside your body - so stop often to drink.

Anyway, after five days my weight has finally stopped going up. I got Birdy's doctor report this week from ddil and it included his weight. I need to lose an entire Birdy. It took Birdy 20 months (from conception) to get that big, so maybe I will set that as my goal to get that much smaller. Slow and steady.

I have not been posting, but will be updating here as I declutter the pounds.

I am currently down 13 pounds from my high weight this year - which I think was in October.

I am glad because some of my clothes are fitting that did not fit before. I have 5 more pounds to hit my first goal and then I will be at my lowest weight since spring of 2023.

I did yoga yesterday!

A whole week! And so far every day in September! I really don't want to break that streak! (Although the arrival of the new baby will probably break it.)

Good morning.

My weight is holding ok and I made relatively good choices this week. I really need to do better about evening habits and dinners.

I also need to figure out a way to replenish my energy after school on Friday that feels like a treat or a reward but is not the bakery section at the grocery store or wine. I needed to stop for groceries on the way home yesterday - not a good idea on Fridays! And I succumbed to donuts.

I have done yoga six days in a row this week even with school starting, and today will make 7. So even though I'm having a bit of a slow start with my coffee, I'm committed to getting the mat out this morning so I can tell you I made it a whole week!

I've been getting a lot of exercise on the stairs at school, and my knees don't hurt! So that alone tells me my fitness level is improving.

Hey there, SubC. I did mean under 200. Major typo there! I'm getting closer to my goal of being under 200. I'm up to walking 2 miles each time I get on the treadmill which is helping the stubborn pounds come off. My goal is to walk most days of the week, but I know that my body will sometimes not allow that. I'm ok with that, as I know my limits. I know I probably shouldn't focus on numbers, but for some reason I do.

Goodwin,

I just saw that you posted here. I hope that "under 100" was a typo and you meant "under 200".. Unless you are very short, under 100 is not a healthy adult weight.

I am trying to focus on the good choices and removing - "decluttering" - the bad choices and obstacles to healthy decisions rather than the actual numbers, although I have a clear range of actual numbers I would like to see, because that is the weight when I felt my healthiest.

I started September off with yoga this morning. I would LIKE to do yoga every day, but I want to set myself up for success because that leads to better motivation, so my goal will be to not skip two days in a row unless I am sick or traveling.

So, I haven't posted in this thread, but I wanted to join in, because I'm on a never-ending quest to declutter my waistline. I've been very overweight for most of my nearly 43 years on this earth. I had an RNY gastric bypass in 2007. I initially lost 70 pounds but gained it all back with interest. So at my heaviest after all that I was at 340 pounds in 2015. I started at that time to try harder to lose weight. I started keeping a daily journal of my calories on a free app. I also started walking. Throughout the next 4 years, I was able to increase the amount of walking I was doing to a little over 3 miles several days a week. I had lost 170 pounds. Then I injured my foot while walking and ended up needing surgery on it. I got depressed and gained some. My weight kept creeping up. It didn't take long with my binge eating to get up to 264. It was not where I wanted to be. Then I ended up having to have significant back surgery in April of 2023. I had a 3-level lumbar spinal fusion. The doctor told me if I didn't lose some weight that we'd be seeing more of each other. I took that to heart, and have been working on it ever since. I'm back on the treadmill and have been counting calories for a while now. After a lot of hard work, I'm currently down to 208. My goal is to get under 100 by the time I go on vacation out of the country on October 8. I know I will gain some while on vacation, but I want to get back on track as soon as that's over. I want to get closer to a healthier weight for me. It's not easy, and I know what it takes. Sorry for the long, rambling discussion. I just wanted to get it off my chest.

My weight went up when I was visiting my son, but is almost back down to before we left - so it took me a week to recover from 4 days of excess. Which is not bad.

I went to the grocery store yesterday, and I looked at the bakery discount. They had a six pack of these donuts I just love, and I was tired from open house, and I really wanted them. But I reminded myself that I would eat all six on the way home if I opened them, and that if I could wait and didn't open them, there were already other treats at home that were less bad for me, and that I was supposed to be avoiding the bakery section, and I did not buy them.

Not buying things that make you feel good in the moment but have long term negative effects for the win!

I am working on shifting my mindset from "I deserve a donut" to "I deserve to be healthy."

Lila, I am sorry you are feeling discouraged.

My weight has finally budged down out of my yo-yo zone. The key factor seems to be Dh being gone, when Dh is gone I hardly cook, so I eat a lot of light snacks and raw food and few meals with almost no sauces. Also, I don't want to go anywhere, so if I run out of a packaged food, I just stop eating it. Also, the things I feed myself are good, but not so good I want to keep eating them after I am full. Dh cooks late - so by the time dinner is ready i am super hungry, and tasty, so i eat too fast and too much.

Also, I think I need to never buy anything from the bakery discount section again.

Anyway, I have to renew my driver's license in the fall. Four years ago I gave up and raised my weight (I should have done it eight years ago, but then i still had hope.) if I can stay on track, I will be close enough to what my license says to not feel like i have to raise it again. Small victories.

Good heavens. I am up 4 pounds from my high weight in June. And I didn't even eat everything I wanted to. This is not good.

I mentioned on the other thread that I am starting a few sessions at the gym next week. Hoping that will help me feel better enough to exercise, and TRY.

I feel like a hamster on a treadmill.
Except an actual hamster on an actually treadmill would probably get more fit.

Got groceries today. 4 kinds of fresh fruit and salt. (I was out of salt)

Veggies are coming in from the garden, milk and eggs are coming in from the barn, we have plenty of carbs in the house.

I have camp this week. I will not be able to snack during camp and I am going to work on packing healthy lunches. The fresh fruit is for those and breakfast.

Lila,

I am right there with you - I know exactly what happens when I quit trying. I am still not back down to where I was before vacation.

If I don't pay attention all the time, the weight piles on, the stuff piles in, and the basic needs of the household for cleanliness and supplies fall apart.

Yesterday I did well, choosing carrots and watermelon for snacks.

well, my denial was brought to reality when I saw a note in a journal of what I weighed last fall when the clothes fit. I said earlier that I didn't know why they were so tight since I had not gained since then. Bull! Liar in my head! The note confirmed that I weighed about 15 pounds less!! Ahhh. I just trundle along not noticing, sticking my head in the sand... no more.

I went to the doctor this week and told him how awful things are with the long covid and how I have gained weight. In fact I gained 4 more pounds since I last posted. Even with what I think is "trying" and not indulging very much. It makes me think if I DID indulge and stop trying, I would be over 300 pounds in no time. Anyway, a fresh start, wearing the fitbit and on a new medication the doctor prescribed for me. This week I lost 4 pounds and my first goal is to lose 20 more. Then basically everything will fit.

4/24 pounds gone

We will get there, SubC. We are trying.

I don't know how all my clothes are so tight. I think I have not gained from when the clothes fit. Maybe just bloated. Will lay off salt and sugar.

It is raining and I just want hot drinks. I had some black coffee earlier.

I am meeting my step goals on fitbit. My general, doing nothing at home, day off number of steps per day is in the 2000s. That's how lazy or tired I am. So the first few days I set my goal at 3000. I was able to do that with the vibrating hourly alarm on the fitbit that tells me to get up and move. Yesterday I set my goal to 4000 and I did that, so will try for 4000 a day this week until that gets consistent, then increase.

I figure if I can keep my movement going, the food part will get easier.

Lila, I am plateauing too. It happens. Just keep trying to replace bad choices with good choices. Even in a very small way.

I'm sure the moving around more will help.

I think I need to start taking my waist measurement, because I (hope) I am probably increasing my muscle tone with all the outside work, and adding muscle adds weight, but it is healthy weight.

I did put on my "fat shorts" from last year that at one point were the only pair I could wear, and they were loose, so that is good. Not loose enough to do my closet clean out yet though.

I am trying so hard and getting nowhere :(

250 - 254 - 253 - 254....

I hope the fitbit will help. Obviously I am some kind of sugar addict as well and I threw away some candy I had here. I just need to make better choices but it is hard when I am stressed. I am definitely moving more with the fitbit and step goals.

I will try that, SubC... I do think of things as someone else's, sometimes, but can do better about it. Also, I like the planning of "I will eat x and y today" so that I have something to focus on eating that is healthy, instead of gravitating towards the junky snacks.

I do think thing where I think "I have to eat everything I have that is junk food and THEN I will start eating healthy tomorrow, and not buy anymore junk." So I eat a ton of junk in a day. But then later in the week I crave cookies or chips and buy more. This, I need to get a grip on.

Most of my clothing is very tight, and I am panicking a bit. I admit this week I spent a few hours looking at clothes on Amazon, and ended up ordering a few things to try. I will probably send it all back, but might find one item to keep. Mainly it is stuff I could layer over my shirts to look nicer and dress things up a bit. I have too many sweater cardigans so was looking for lightweight things for summer. Amazon is not going to get me good quality clothes, but I just want to look okay.

I found this one item I LOVED and was about to buy it when I realized it looked very similar to the one I donated because that dude made fun of me in it, and then I was sad because I did love it and I wish I had kept it, but in fact if I had, I would be to self conscious to wear it... so, I didn't order that thing. Anyway. The cycles my brain is in!