A huge thank you to all of you. I don't know if I'm a hoarder, but I certainly have/had the home of a hoarder.
I have depression and extreme social anxiety. I work and try to be social enough that I don't isolate myself. The coping mechanisms needed to survive an average day takes all of my energy. My house got to the point where I could only sit on the bed or toilet! And I was living in fear that I would be discovered. It was to the point that I would work from home some days so I could keep the chain on the door for fear that my landlord would come in while I was at work
Friday I woke up with a huge knot in my belly. I had such a feeling that something was about to happen. I went to work anyway. I parked and got the message from my landlord that he had to come in today (Monday). Panic immediately set in. Long story short, I've worked my butt off this weekend. Last night I didn't even sleep. I still wasn't ready for this morning. I actually postponed until tomorrow. Unfortunately, I lost my motivation.....until I found this board. I'm back to working. This time, I'm filling a bag and then reading a new post on the board. So thank you so much. You're helping to calm my anxiety AND get me moving. I don't know y'all, but I kinda love you. Lol
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