Hi Mary and welcome. I know the feeling. It is difficult and discouraging. I was able to develop a good support system here. If you go to the Daily Chat message board, then choose What are you doing today, you'll see that we have an active, supportive group and we would love to have you join in.

I also find it really helpful to read old posts from others, looking for inspiration and something to quell the isolation that comes from hoarding.

Hi. I'm finally reaching out for help. I became a hoarder several years ago when I became physically unwell. I'm doing better now physically, but I can't get things under control. I used to me "Miss Tidy" with a place for everything. I'm now on the opposite end with things piling up.
I think all day about it and make plans to clean it up, but then it never happens. I'm embarrassed to have anyone over.
I have short periods where I might clean up one area (i.e. clean off a table), but then it goes right back to the way it was.
It's so depressing and I just sit here and look at it.